do evil, somebody will know.
you think nobody knows.
you think you're the master of all criminal minds.
they will find out. one way or another.
there is no escape.
karma police will come for you.
just you wait and see !@$%#%

i have nothing to say today.

nothing but a throbbing head!!!


*throb* . *throb* . . *throb*
*throb*! . . . *throb* . . *throb*

what's your inner flower?

[c] s u g a r d
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i remember there was once muse asked what my favourite flower was
so i went i don't really have one, do you have a list for me to choose from?
every flower i see is pretty.

he seemed shocked
"but every girl has a favourite flower!!!!"

is an inner flower okay for an answer?

on repeat : fenix tx - tearjerker

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[a prayer for every broken soul,
i hope you heal.
does anybody hear me?
i said i want you to heal.]

please don't go.

when all is down
think about the times you had
the times sunshine was abound
times when not a sunken face was seen
in the reflected image of yourself

would anyone ever know?
how much of a delight you are to me
it pains me terribly so,
things life has done to you.

say a prayer before i sleep tonight
a prayer for you i'll recite
that hey, when tomorrow comes,
everything will be alright
so close your eyes and sleep real tight
i wish you happy dreams tonight.

maybe a phase is what this is
perhaps oversensitivity kicked in

hanging for a star
are we still waiting?
the distance very far
are we still hanging for a star?
why are we waiting now?
..stranger as it may seem
we're still holding this bunch of dreams.

or are we?
0437
it's raining!
it's raining for you and me.

i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself i will not get ahead of myself

save
save me from this
wandered around the town
all the thousand things
i might miss.

and you
think we'll suffer much
think we'll close our eyes
just to see the light
pass us by

with tomorrow coming
hope that i don't let you down again
said i'm so glad to be here
does it mean a thing
if only i could breathe what you breathe
if only i could see what you see.

sit
we'll take our time
watching the flowers grow
all the friends we've known..
say goodbye.

and you
did you suffer much?
did you close your eyes
just to see the night rush on by.

gathered all around you
hope that we don't let you down again
said i'm so glad to be here
does it mean a thing
if only i could breathe what you breathe
if only i could see what you see.



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look! emo kid! who me!? mmm.

got that off drey's blog
cool site... go visit!

sometimes i get so tired i smash my guitars
forget everything else in the world
that heavy load on upon my shoulders
go on now.
go slip into sweet deep slumber

would you.
hold my hand and walk by me ?

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our lives are geared mainly to deflect the darts
thrown at us by the laws of probability.
the moment we're able, we insulate ourselves
from random acts of hate and destruction.
it's always been there - in the neighbourhood we build
the walls between our houses
the wariness with which we treat the unknown.

one person in six million will be struck by lightning.
one woman in sixteen will experience breast cancer.
one child in 10,000 will experience a serious limb deformity.
fifteen in a hundred will experience clinical depression.
one in a hundred will experience schizophrenia.

a day in which nothing bad happens would be a miracle
a day in which all the things that could have gone wrong didn't.
the dull day is a triumph of the human spirit.
and boredom,
is a luxury unprecedented in the history of our species.

live life while you can.
complications aside.
thoughts ahidden.

yeah right.

these days i prefer listening to the silence than my files
almost void of emotions
a million thoughts a second in my head
questions seldom with answers
would you even know how's it like
what never happened went upon somebody else
would you even try
to understand?

protect me from knowing what i don't need to know.
protect me from even knowing that there are things to know that i don't know.
protect me from knowing that i decided not to know about the things that i decided not to know about.
lastly,
protect me from the concequences of the above prayer.

*yawn*

never believed in songs like sandler's grow old with you.

prove me wrong, somebody.

out here
i can barely see my breath
surrounded by jealousy and death
i can't be reached
only had a call
dragged underneath
separate from you all.
this time i've lost my own return
in spite of everything i've learned
i hid my tracks, spit out all my air
slipped into cracks
stripped of all my cares.
i'm so tired
sheeps are counting me
no more struggle, no more energy.
no more patience.. and you can write that down
it's all too crazy
i'm not sticking around.

. . . What is my spectrum? I am green: My main color is green. I like to have fun and comfort. Happiness is the marker of a great life. . What is my spectrum?

. jELLYtOtS .

hhhhmmmmmm.
i just looked at my previous post and remembered that i was supposed to write about prick clark yesterday.
hahahaha..
uh. i've decided not to.. due to some.very personal reasons :P

anyway!
i finally got enough sleep
been sleeping less than 5 hours the past few nights.
it's becoming a habit!!!! staying up late for the sake of staying
andthefearofgettingmoredreams
allofthemseemsorealthey'rereallydraining

this sudden obsession with candy

she said : no silver paint leh.. we use the back up colours you chose okay?

i found my silver paint in a paint shop.
how does a dark navy blue ceiling with painted silver swirls and glow in the dark stars hung from it sound?
:)
i just hope that interior designer won't screw up my idea.
by asking her workers to spend less time on my ceiling and more time on the walls or something.

i am supposed to write something about prick clark here
but i am too tired
so i will do it later :P
goooooooooddniiigghhhhhhhhtttt natassja

damn... i am getting a headache
must be due to working infront of the comp for too long a time
so i shall go download somemore mp3s now and take a shower

need some lovin' to ease the pain
things are never gonna be the same
ever again.
infuriate do you feel my rage
no reason for why they never cared.
the misunderstood grief
filled lungs with misery
the suffocated
inhale, exhale.
you know you'll be sorry when i'm gone.

What kind of Drug Addict are you?

so is this suppose to suck or what :?

What obscure band are you?

you are a book called



what
dr. seuss book warped you?

just got home from school
man i feel like going to sleep
Zzzzzzz...

had engish olevel oral earlier :)
all went well.. conversation topic was "young people these days do not spend enough time appreciating life. what are your views on this?"
or something like that
i love these kinda topics
it's when i finally get a chance to speak my mind
what i think about life itself.... with someone really listening to me.
i enjoyed talking to them (the invigilators)
not sure whether if they did though :P

an empty vessel is all you are if you are not strong enough.

my english teacher gives pretty interesting short talks on life too sometimes
but i think must of us took them as lectures.

weird why i still dislike him

just me and my music.

i have finally got it all figured out
no more morning sunshines
no more sweet good nights
tired of chasing...
i need a break.

....Zzzzzzz

nobody becomes a punk just by listening to punkrock
and composing punkrock songs
or playing punkrock songs
punk isn't all about image either
jacket and pants
mohawk hair with piercings everywhere
screw the trendy wankers we're here for the music!!!

received my mt olevel result yesterday
did pretty well for a student who used to get grades like F9 and G10 for tests :P

and for your (muse's) information, i am not a punk

early wednesday morning i drag myself outta bed
convinced myself today will be a better day
everyday routine i run through once again
at the back of my head i curse what life has made me take.

[chorus]
wednesdays..... oh wednesdays suck!

run for the bus! i'm gonna be late again
never a good start for an already crabby wednes-day
usual stares at spikes and buttons, accessories of my pack
get the fuck away, limbei is having a bloody bad day!!!!

[chorus]

i wanna sleep in late
until it's time for punks to play
who the hell are you to care
what we want to do with our day

*guitar solo*

wednesdays..... boy, wednesdays suck!
[fade away]

trigger : boring math lesson
venue : classroom of 4e2, guangyang secondary school
time: 9:30am - 10:15am

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'will'you'listen'to'me'rant?'

pedro the lion sounds even better on a rainy/windy/cold/quiet morning.
haha.
woke up to the wind rattling my window grills (yes that's how strong!)
rain is here again!
felt immediately awake and refreshed.
somehow rain makes it all better on a monday morning :)
6:33am
maybe this is what a blog is for
to fill it with nonsense from my head others might not appreciate listening to 6am in the morning?
sigh
i think the rain just died

MY COUNTER HAS DISAPPEARED !

What Was Your PastLife?

haven't been really blogging these past few days.
see that little white box with a small red cross in the middle of it?
well.
i was just trying to add an image source to one of my entries.
then that appeared. and the edit button disappeared.
.
so i can't delete that entry now.
yesyes laugh....
:(
nevermind.
it's only an entry :P

anyway!!! i've done quite a lot this week.
was at the plain sunset private gig they held at Esplanade.
07082002
*wide smile*
one of my favourite bands!!!
wednesday had been a long long day.
baked raspberrrrry cheesecake in school for this f&n proj.
HUGE SUCCESS! Ü
although it tasted more like cake than cheesecake.
it wasn't totally my fault that i added so much flour..!
that was like, our first attempt!
and the proportions were screwed and all... had to make our own whipped cream.. one of us did not bring cheese cream... (cheesecake without cheese cream?!?!!)
eh?
i thought i was s'posed to talk about the plain sunset gig. lol

just yesterday night i thought of abandoning this site
i was thinking
'what's the point.i feel almost like an entertainer'
(are you entertained?)
so muse said
'i'll read your entries if no one else does!!!'
haha. he knows i didn't mean it that way :P

i have strayed again.



What Spooky Being are You?

this is an awfully long entry.

ANYWAY. the plain sunset gig.
heh.. well it was nothing special, only that it was a private gig, only people with invites or free tickets are allowed to enter.. the crowd was mostly adults so there was no mosh pit.
i felt so ... empty after the event.
first time i did not mosh to plain sunset!
they played quite a lot of new songs and those from love songs for the emotionally wounded but non from runaway.
errr and how i got in?
i gotta thank joshua for that..
a contest was held and 3 winners were picked from all of the entries. too lazy to explain what the contest was about.
go visit the site!
in case you're wondering why have i not included the add, i already had it linked.
so now all you have to do is to search for the link. in this post. *.......*

uhhhh okay the other gig i went to
was at substation's guinness theater
08082002
an alternative/punk gig.
2 bands did covers of radiohead!!!!! from albums ok comp and bends.
i think the virgin violets were damn good. grrrrl power! :)

ahhh... there is art attack on central now.i love that show.

oh and i have placed an order with borders for my pedro the lion cd.
5 more weeks to go before collection
yay! i can't wait *wide smile*

caught signs with firdaus on national day night. :)
thanks.

don't you just sometimes think that
you're only here for others?
and not for yourself.

testtest

.public announcement.

ryan - one of the very best guitarists around. very experienced in his line. drop him a note or something won't you? :P samayl6@hotmail.com

hellohellohellohellohellohellohowarey0u
hellohellohellohellohellohellohowareyou
thankyouthankyouiamfine
thankyouthankyouiamfine
thankyouthankyouiamfineandihopeyouaretoo.

i should have done this earlier.
playing pedro the lion's the longer i lay here sounds even more heavenly at a time like this.
thanks muse, for bringing this piece into my life :)

guess the circle i've been in has ended.
what can i say?
just when i thought....
sometimes things just don't last
will we find ever find the other one?
somebody more like myself?
or is it just you i am missing

it's time to face the world.

stillness of the night

bullshit.
even at this time, i can hear vehicles going by on the roads....
but then again, it's probably cos i live near the expressway :P
0405hrs.
WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING HERE I AM SUPPOSED TO BE ASLEEP
whoever said i have to be?

serenity.
love the darkness like this. only light sources are from my monitor and that light in the corridor.
sounds of crickets and that buzz in my ear
deafening silence
but this is all i can hear.
people change sometimes
i shan't blame you for what you've done
afterall your live you lead
i had no share in yours to begin with.
but next time leave me at least a note won't you?

ahhhh another bout of sneezes.
this gotta stop!
stop! stop! STOP!!!
obviously my commands did not work.
as if to show rebellion, my body went into yet another round of sneezing fit.
and nope, it's not that tickling sensation you get in your nose and then a message is sent to a part of your brain and then the brain sends a message to all the muscles that have to work together to create the amazingly complicated process that we call the sneeze.
*doh*
nope. they just come. like that.
*4am insanity*

cos all of the stars are fading away

tired... oh so tired. yet another case of flu.
sneezed nonstop the whole of today!
*Zzzzzz* but what really pissed me off was when we were informed that we are allowed to go home after 3++ hours of waiting.
teachers weren't available to hold the extra classes.
if they can bitch so much about us wasting all of our time away, man.... they should do a check on themselves!

i feel horrible
head is throbbing
think i'll just go read a book then go to sleep.

swallow the pill.

you're up with the sunrise
and down when the work's been done
with excellence industry
diligence naturally
i would like to be you
just for a few habit-forming years
laziness cuts me like fine cutlery
i need a miracle
someone to help me
myself
sweet jesus i need you
forgive me this sin
not hookers or heroin, gambling or gin.
it sounds so ridiculous but i just can't lift this
i need a miracle.someone to help me
myself
someone to help me.. help myself.

-trust i cannot rely on-

i'm sleepy.
...Zzzzzzz

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*cant get enough of these*

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[Angel.]


*Ooooooer*

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*heehee*

heal, wound. heal!

wake from your sleep
the drying of your tears
today, we escape
we escape

pack and get dressed
before your father hears us
before all hell breaks loose

breathe, keep breathing
don't lose your nerve
breathe, keep breathing
i can't do this... alone.

sing us a song
a song to keep us warm
there's such a chill, such a chill.

you can laugh
a spineless laugh
we hope your rules and wisdom choke you

now we are one
an everlasting peace
we hope that you choke
that you choke
we hope that you choke, that you choke
we hope that you choke, that you choke

hello you.



....it's too early to be awake

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*shrug*

goodnight. :)

i still have the same song i had last night on winamp right now..

silverchair - miss you love

not that i'm missing anybody
the song just sort of calms me and even gets me lost in it.
:)

skating tomorrow
or rather..... later.
will i finally be able to nail the soul today..?
focus.jump. concentrate. don't lean forward.grind.
yay!

!!!!!!
gotta start stocking up mineral water.
just heard about newater...
treated sewage water?!!!
as gross as it sounds......

"don't be a prick.. water is water lah"

it's been like 2 months now since i sat down and watched tv
maybe already more than 2 weeks since i touched newspapers
sudden loss of interest in these things..

trivialities of life.

ahhh guess i've had enough of html tutorials.
i'm gonna call it a day.

it's just a fad.. against the teen.teenage angst brigade

the day hasn't been very nice to me.
had some weird dreams again
authority with cuffs.. run.run away from them all
finally stopped and tears came when i realised..
how difficult change is going to be
especially when nobody wants change

work against them.

it's a cloudy night.
where have all my stars gone ?

first post for my very first site!
okay maybe not very first.
went through a shitload of trouble to get that picture up there in here.
uploaded into the site, as they say. heh.
i will get better at this!!!!!