March 31, 2003

henry rollins is still alive

who can you really put trust in these days besides yourself?

...forgotten memories

March 30, 2003

yay comments' link is up

feeling tired...
associate me with feminine adjectives and i'd feel like all sense of masculinity has been stolen

March 28, 2003

FRIDAY FIVE!!!!!?

1. What was your most memorable moment from the last week?
it was at work... chased this prick friend of mine who works opposite my store with an ink chop in hand.


2. What one person touched your life this week?
it didn't happen


3. How have you helped someone this week?
every little action counts... good deeds are done out of good will
i tend to forget things i do out of good will


4. What one thing do you need to get done by this time next week?
my art pieces for the portfolio completed


5. What one thing will you do over the next seven days to make your world a better place?
complete my portfolio and get my pay banked in
ok so that was two...

nevertheless...
The Portable was interesting

and even if nobody knew about blackflag and henry rollins's books
he must have tonnes of friends
and he must have spoke to them about his books
and his friends must have talked about his books to their friends
and their friends must have mentioned it to their friends' friends
and friends' friends' friends
and friend's friends' friends' friends'
well the list goes on
and the world goes round and round and round

oooh i am gonna be exactly 16 years and 3 months old at 3:45pm today.

reading henry rollins's The Portable...
i wonder if his books would be as successful as they are now if he had never played for blackflag
i doubt he can deny that being known to have played for blackflag helped in this success
i mean... hmm... honestly
who would want or even bother to read the random thoughts of life and people in general...
of a nobody?
the perfect example in your face

recording... remembering... repeating... yet again

March 25, 2003

recording... remembering... repeating...

at work right now
started the first shift today because my store manager forgot to bring her keys home and left them in the store
the american ring is boring and slow and quiet
but the tape which youre supposed to watch in there so that you can die has super cool graphics and colours
i would like to make a short film like that

March 24, 2003

random thoughts
words...
do you know?
your lies
promises
broken
rainwater
the wind carries
do i hear thunder
in the distance
see the sky
the sky lights up
bolts of flashes
turn black
white.
sigh

the silence seems to suffocate and bury me again...



March 22, 2003



goodbye
the future's sold out
there's no use screaming.
who thought we'd ever get this far

tonight, your faith has come down
to money and a TV
psychics who've never been to mars
and nazis breast feeding

i know you must be upset
i can't find meaning
i'm sorry we're sorry
we're all scared
all scared

hey
is anybody home?
has anybody
wasted tears on loneliness that everyone

goodnight the truth has come out
everyone's needy.
white teeth, a ticket to meet god
be all that you envy

the shotgun under your bed has
started breathing.
you shot it, you shot it
i'm bare... so bare.

is anybody home?
has anybody wasted
tears on loneliness that everyone becomes
is anybody home
has anybody painted fear
on the bedroom walls that save us from.....

has anybody wasted tears on loneliness that everyone becomes when they're not alright?

March 18, 2003

2/3s of me is filled with stress.......
how the hell am i gonna complete 8 pieces of art within 3 weeks?
!!@##@!$$#@!!%$R@#%@#$@#$ #@$@###%R@!
@#$@##%^$&^$%^#%$$%#$^#$3^$%#^$



the world is an unhappy place...

March 16, 2003

SO SO SOO SOOOSSSOOO SO SO SOOO
STRRRRRRRESSSSSFUUUULLLLLLLLLLL

22 more days to the lasalle interview and.
i am ashamed to say i have only 2 pieces of presentable art.......
everything else is in the making.
AAAARRRRRRRRRHHHHHHHHHHHHHHGGGG!
tHiS iS SO StRESSFUL.

i just had a change of guestbook
cos the last one sucked

March 15, 2003

bedok skatepark wasn't that bad afterall
though the first impression i had was
THAT LOOKS LIKE A FUCKING PLAYGROUND!
but it really is better than youthpark's
cos there are loads of floor rails and even a dish
and grindable seats
and the place is realllllllll biggg anddddddd spaaciooouus
so there are more things to do
though the ramps are a bit fucked up
and the floors are friggin slippery
really difficult to get speed for gaps
but they just need time to be gotten used to
well i've busted both my shins and right thigh right butt right palm
won't be skating for a while
heh.

March 14, 2003

there's a reason to why talking cock the movie was made here in singapore

March 13, 2003

:)

March 11, 2003

so you say
what's a few glitches to achieving a life long dream?
people's been through more shit than that.
what does a life long dream even stand for these days?

i didnt bloody join a band just to waste time.

things are bad
really bad
i aint jamming again this week.
fuck man
what rubbish
is
this
.

fuck.

March 10, 2003

before i forget...

whoever's reading this
go to http://www.audioreload.com/phorum/read.php?f=7&i=777&t=777
PLEASE....
and send that guy an email!!!!

i would cry if radiohead really comes...

March 9, 2003

i don't wanna be old having spent my life doing what never pleased me
i want to remember how i used to envy those who have a band to play in
and i want to remember that i have a band to play in
i will never be forced into a culture i cannot accept
i also want some green jellytots.

sometimes things are just so difficult when people around you disagree

sigh we wouldn't be jamming again until the end of next week
all thanks to the on going common tests
and i'm bloody excited about getting into lasalle
my mom made pasta today
it's been a bloody long time since i ate home cooked stuff
work's been alright the past few days... things aren't so boring anymore because i work on my art pieces at work (?)
kinda regret not taking art in secondary school
i depend on friends' guidance to a successful portfolio
it's gonna determine a fourth of my future

this feels bloody disconnected

March 8, 2003

im so sick of my hairstyle maybe i should just shave it all

but no of course im not gonna shave my head

March 6, 2003



lies and the mindless doings of yours
another heart needs mending.
what else can i say?
sigh.


March 4, 2003

OH NO THE CLAY ISN'T STRONG ENOUGH

im gonna go to work with spiked hair tomorrow
punk style





no im not a butch