i would swallow my pride
i would choke on rhines
but the lack thereof would leave me empty inside
swallow my doubt
turn it inside out
find nothing but faith in nothing
wanna put my tender
heart in a blender
watch it spin round into a beautiful oblivionnnnnn
rendezvous then i'm through with you...

*bOogies & celebrates the birth of music*

it's so funny unny nny ny y ...
how one can feel so drained rained ained ined ned ed d ...
after a few hours on a few paragraphs.
ah but what the hell at least i'm writing for a cause...

wow blogger has had a facelift
takes damn long to load though.
this morning feels like a dream
was walking the streets (or rather, roads...) of orchard with a friend after the album launch at HRC.
review will be up on monday at purerock.
anyway it feels like i've walked a few thousand miles in total today
legs are totally sore but no worries, not sore enough to disable me from walking like a normal person.
and i haven't had any sleep since the 6 hours yesterday.
we hung out at esplanade and blew loads of bubbles into the river (valley?)
thank goodness someone else's gonna cover the gig at YMS tomorrow for me.
although i feel a wee bit uneasy about that... ... ... . . .
not doing my job like i should i meant.
but wowee fcuk has a storewide sale of 50%-70% off items!
need to get new glasses... and a lot of cdRs.
NO MONEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY IT'S ALL ABOUT THE MONEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

if you were to ask me if life's good
i would say hell yeah...

i was at the library the other day when there was this bespectacled chinese guy who looked like he was in his mid 20s in front of me and we were in queue for the book borrowing machines.
then there it was... the only free machine right in front of him but it was set in the malay language
well i'm quite sure everybody has been to a national library...
but he took a look and looked away, and waited for another available one.
i couldn't figure out what his problem was.
and i still can't...

whatever, nevermind...

it's hard... to maintain relationships.
everybody gets bored sometimes.
feelings too odd to describe.
and words become difficult to find.
don't they?

WHO FINISHED THE ORANGE JUICE AGAIN!

it was 2 hours from town to punggol on bus before.
now... with the purple line
45 minutes from orchard including time taken to walk from the station to my doorstep!
*does the hokey pokey*

FINALLY FINISHED THE FRIGGIN ARTICLE
MAN I WAS GONNA JUMP OUT THE WINDOW IF I COULDN'T FINISH IT BY DAWN
IT'S BEEN 3 DAYS
but then it's unnecessary now so.

uncertainty
why do we even speak of feelings
that stay for denial?
if only you would know
if only words are as easy as they come
if only it was simpler...
lesser complications
no complications.

IT'S RAINING IT'S RAINING IT'S RAINING!
*skips around*

well... found this pretty funny, got it off chris ho's Attack of the S.M Space Encroachers

the straits times reported on January 31, 2001 a road-rage incident mentioned in court: "a 43-year old laywer W felt something hit the back of his silver Mitsubishi. he stopped the car and inspected it for the damage and found a slight dent on the rear bumper. the driver of the other car M also got out. there was a brief confrontation... M got angry and accused W of braking suddenly. W told M that if he did not intend to settle the matter, he would have to call the police. M then asked his wife C to phone her father. when W heard that, he got angry and shouted at her: "Why call your father? call Lee Kuan Yew or the f___ing police."

tsk tsk, tsk, tsk. (no prizes for guessing which driver ended up with a fine)

>what dyo call a young mat?
mini mart

:p

man i went to the worst gig ever earlier...
argh.. it was so bad
i got so irritated i left before the 4th band could finish playing
and... they had 10 bands to play.
i'm so pissed i'm gonna scrape the review and have an article of griping...

these feelings...
these feelings we feel
these unnecessary feelings we feel.

i've done it again...........
it's just weird, why i keep mixing days up.
thought today was friday until i gave my workplace a call to tell my friend that the xgames comp is tomorrow (saturday) and the xtrials are today (friday).
so i was all set to go for an appointment i've got at amore
and now i'm all ready but with nowhere to go
ha ha.

they've left
and said they'll be back at 1330 later.
it doesn't feel really right wanting to go back to sleep after a meal.

and i've been having a flu for 2 days now
and a bloody sore throat to add to that
i might have sars
ha ha.

received some phone call at about 8
i didn't know if the ringing was from outside or from my room
but i answered it anyway
and some idiot said he'd be calling again later before he reaches the flat to fix the walls
and i said okay
then i went back to sleep
and then
the same idiot brought in somemore idiots at 9
that was when
i had to wake up and stop sleeping.
have had less than 5 hours of sleep
in a pretty depressed state of mind right now
and i actually have some class at amore later
contemplating going back to dreamland instead

why do i allow you to let myself be bothered by these unjustified acts of yours?

lost it a bit there earlier
but all's fine now
sometimes when too many things are going on in your life at one time
it just gets really heavy
and
well it gets to you.

bloody guitarist resigned from the band yesterday.
and he said the meanest thing someone's ever said to me in a long time
he said that i had been waiting for the day.
it isn't my fault that the boy doesn't know what he wants
and that he cannot keep commitments.
he's the kind of person who would make it sound like aljunied is the north pole when the rest of the band live on the other side of the country and when he lives in bedok.
and a whole load of other nonsense.
guess we'll be taking a break
get things sorted out and try out a few guitarists.
he couldn't play for shit anyway.

i probably should give an award to redsky :p
for being the
most active commenter i've ever had at my blog :p
not that it's bad or anything like that...

slow afternoon... the heat's making me sleeepy.
and sleepy.
sleepysleeepysleepy...

6 hours straight in a pub = hair still stinking of cig smoke even after 2 washes
too many hardcore bands in a row = half dead brain
punkrock bands with not much showmanship =
you get the idea.
anyhoooo... One Up For The Kids was a gig well done.
the bands were tight and they played their music well.
do check out purerock in a few days' time for my review.
and other reviews as well.
til then...

the night was alright
had quite a few drinks
stomach feels weird now
company was good
music wasn't
drinks weren't really good
guess i ain't much of a drinker
probably won't be sleeping
got a jam session later at 11am
and then will be heading home
shower and change
then head out for bruce almighty.
please let bruce almighty be entertaining enough to keep me awake..
i ain't gonna be at a club for a long long time from now

can't believe i let my friend talk me into clubbing tonight
she's just lucky i said yes because it just so happens that she's my best mate
and cos she'll be leaving for england soon.
and nope my parents don't know
can't bloody believe this...

he said> page me! call me! fax me! email me! and drop me a line while you're at all of that!
me> ?

spent the whole of yesterday's afternoon (technically) on a collage
it was a cut and paste thing
extracts of pictures from this book on how The Pianist was made
the booklet can be found together with the dvd they're selling out there
wasted about 10 of them
well anyway everything was done on a yellow vanguard sheet
unkempt black wax crayon colour filled the spaces
blood red outlining of the overlapping pictures
spiked purplish pink border of my heading
piece looks dark and sad
mom asked why i made it so .. er.. frightening was the word she used.
called it 'demise of the beautiful'
think i'm gonna be doing a series of similar pieces before putting everything up
putting everything up as in putting them on my walls...
wish i had a webcam

tired and uninspired.

why's everybody waiting for a telephone call?
*sigh*

memories stay... feelings don't.

let's not talk about it now because i am very very tempted...
very tempted to disagree to everything you suggest.
rest assured i'll be a changed person when my tomorrow comes.
goodnight you...

delusional....they're allll delllluuussiioonnaaal.
seeing what's in their heads... believing what's in their heads.
hearing what's in their heads... believing what's in their heads.

yeah so i went and i am back from sonic edge worship service
bands were super tight and good
friends and i left before the sonic edge band could finish playing
or rather erm finish their worship
so my review wouldn't be completed.

they were playing and flashing lyrics of praises of god on the projector.