okay i'm back...
wasn't on a hiatus, was gone for a 5day trip in thailand and i'm running on 56k right now cos my computer wouldn't boot and i need to reinstall winxp so yeah... -__-
guess IT (whatever IT is...) caught up with me... and the computer.
so much for a happy chinese new year
bah... in distress once abloodygain

a follow up post will be written another time...

a friend posed this question today

why so committed?

i was seriously stumped for a moment
had to retrace years' worth of happenings and thoughts...

the first gig
first jamming session
first review
first interview

do you remember the feeling of hearing a great song for the very first time?
for that very first few minutes
and the rest of the other minutes when the song is being replayed
it feels like there's hope for things afterall


perhaps it is all for the love of music





why do we even bother with explanations?

it's a lazy warm and sunny thursday afternoon...

not a very helpful weather when there's still so so much much workkk to complete

these days when i start on a post it's always about how much school work there is to do

so today...
i shall have a change of topic

met up with 4/7th of this symphonic black/death metal band i'm playing bass for yesterday at dover ITE...
(complete line up consists of vocalist, 3 guitarists, bassist, drummer, keyboardist)
worked a little on an original and goofed around a lot :p
there's still a whole lot of practising to do...
especially on the finger-rolling part
it was my first time using the bass to play metal stuff...
but i think i did okay on the whole
at least that was what he said :p

vocalist/guitarist for the main band is missing in action and uncontactable
so i guess everything will be on a standstill once again
oh well...

and did i mention how SUAY i had been the past week?

broke my 2nd pair of specs yesterday.
and the 1st pair broke the EXACT same way the 2nd pair did.
but on different occasions lah...
and the 2nd pair wasn't even a month old!!
!@#$@$%^^@#$@#$!
perhaps something was trying to tell me to give up on specs and get contact lenses
so i got myself a day and night continuous wear for 30 days pair today

then a friend was telling me some horror stories about how contact lenses roll to the back of your eyes when you go to sleep or something
and if that really happens to me... ... ...
then i really really can announce myself as SUAY -__-

.

I don't feel good today

it's one of those days when you feel like everything is a complete joke...

might just be PMS... i don't know.


and life still goes on anyway...

i went back to school today
had to buy more paint so i thought what the heck, might as well attend the class since there's only One every thursday

they taught us how to write a CV.

SO the past 2 days were spent working on the pieces...
managed to finish 13 mixed media pieces in 4 hours today and i swear.
i can remember how to draw every curve and turn and inch of the exterior of my guitar without looking at it if you ask me to -__-

waiting for the glue on one of the pieces to dry now...
no idea what other sorts of media i can use on the remaining ones

but at least i've got most of the assignments cleared :)


*phew*

fell ill yesterday afternoon...
only got to the doc's in the evening

'a very serious cold but with no flu and a 39 degree celsius fever accompanied by a throbbing (thud thud thud thud) head and a cactus throat'

i swear i had never felt worse o.O

all of that brought me a 3 day MC
and it's only the first week of school
bad omen or what?

so most of us spent about $100 on painting materials alone yesterday
20 sketches on mixed media plus 2 a3 paintings on painting techniques due friday
5 sketches 3 a4 paintings in sketchbook 1 a2 resolved perspective painting on canvas due next tuesday

how the hell am i supposed to complete all of that in a week?

IT'S UP IT'S UP IT'S UP!

click HERE

:D


oh yes and school starts tomorrow.

the once rusty tear ducts oiled

now they won't stop

yesterday night

i found rusty tear ducts


so they bled

and then i wondered what comfort felt like

enveloped
in sweet madness
void within
is the space
you might never fill


save me from this insanity, why don't you?



listen: the used - on my own

just a few moments ago, i heard fireworks in a distance.

and smashing pumpkins
dancing in the moon lit night



friggin' m1 was(is) screwing up cos it's the new year
so i couldn't reach him
to wish him a happy new year...


a happy merry new year to the rest anyway! :)