It’s an hour before my flight back to homeland. Am looking forward to the next trip already, for I have some unfinished business to deal with. Did not manage to exhaust all shopping in KLCC! Horrible time management or what? I’ll never know. Gave away a couple of shopping vouchers (accumulated from Jin/other shopping and wanted to use today but ran outta time GRRR) to the nice cab driver who drove me to the airport. He was in absolute delight. Gonna be a hit with his daughter tonight.

Putting things in perspective… it has been quite a curious weekend actually. I found new friends, forged ties, crossed lines into new boundaries, discovered a discipline of travel I had once been friendly with only in thought but now with experience. My colleagues in the Malaysia office had been really generous with their hospitality. Makes me feel all warm snuggly inside. Above all, I found myself again. Among other things.

Contemplating getting a widget of some sort, start locking entries… journey ahead is looking to be difficult, and it is not any easier bearing a soul raw to the public eye.

I am such a big fat suaku.

KLCC Mall is like the awesomest mall Ever. It is Vivocity, Takashimaya and Paragon all rolled into one. Selection of literature in Kinokuniya SG pales way too much in comparision. There are cafés inside out and I am at DOME now, sipping on a drink of some wonderfully crushed apple and ice, running on a free WirelessKL internet account. The balcony in my room looks out to the pool and green lush, Corus Hotel is much quaintness albeit old. Went about with business of photoshooting as usual, earlier in the day, and then some tea&toast, some shopping and A&W for dinner. DON'T YOU GUYS JUST MISS CONEY DOGS!!!!??!

I think I could love KL.

Hi all

KL in 14 hours, Jin is awesome entertaining and life is beautiful

Had such a scare this early morning. Mom dropped me off to catch a bus to work at a bus stop in AMK, minutes later a bunch of emergency vehicles whizzed past. Bus arrived and the accident site was just a couple of junctions down the road. A vehicle had overturned and it was the exact make of what my mom drives.

First thought that came into the mind - What the fuck? Could it be?
Second thought - Gotta get off the freaking bus.
On the walk towards accident site - Slight hyperventilation takes place
Third thought - Who should I inform first? Recalls that brothers at home are awake
Fourth thought - Keep calm. Keep calm. Keep calm. Keep calm.
Fifth thought - Did she die? Will she die?

So I got to the site eventually, checked and double checked the vehicle number. Checked and double checked faces of the casualties. Triple checked the vehicle number.

Walked back to the bus stop in cold sweat.

Woke up from the half slumber I had been in, and went ahead to work.

Well aren't human relations the strangest of the lot. It makes no sense more often than not, when one and one are put together. Just how and why is it that they allow the occurrence of such brazen contradictions? Annoys the heck out of me sometimes but really... oh fuck it

this weekend (week?) had been an interesting concoction of revisiting the old and making the new.

Had my first (not very authentic probably, according to my vietnamese colleagues) Vietnamese fare on Wednesday for dinner, at VaVaVoom on Seah Street. THE FOOD WAS GREAT! Totally looking forward now, to the Vietnam trip some time in September. Apparently the best Thai cuisine is just around the corner, just a bit from VaVaVoom. That's a treat for the next dinner date. Walked few doors down to Shanghai Jazz for some... shucks I am So bad with names. WELL anyway there was good jazz, company, and some sort of liquor. The name of it escapes me. Lazy to google. It was downed with green tea. Got home at 12.05. Was half expecting my clothes to turn to rags the subaru into a pumpkin and my driver into mouse. Oh there's no such magic afterall...

Thursday saw regs' grad show through - too many old friends old faces. heck I even caught up with the art history lecturer from when I was in year 1, whose early morning lectures I used to snooze in and out of. Cold dark auditorium + monotonous droning voice = perfect set up for sleep minus the blankie. And that was back in 2003. He has had thousands of fine arts students and is glad to know I have managed to steer clear of venturing into design as a profession, as what most FA trained would have done/have done. There was a fashion show (no designs showcased were too extreme; been there done that, real unfortunate...) that I thought had an awesome runway made right in the corridors of the big black beauty. SM seemed real impressed with the entire happening and he wished for o&o to eventually adapt a 'Lasalle way of life'. Well it's +1 at the moment, just 259 more revolutions to go. Night ended with a good lie-in on the green, regaining our breaths taken away by exhibits of inspiration all around. Regs has done us proud. True blue fine artist out in the field woohoo!

Friday was a quick dinner of teochew porridge at joo chiat and teh at killiney selegie with non stop convo before I was dropped off outside zouk to join 'a younger crowd' to see Plainsunset with their 4th album launch! Machiam like got sugar daddy or what. Anyway, again, many old faces... added new ones to the crowd by successfully psychoing a 40 year old and his female friend to watch teenyboopers bop mosh and surf to PS. And buy their CDs. And get them autographed HAHA. Was really glad to have renewed brief ties with johnC ex-manager of PS. I was just a kid back then, when we first knew of each other. Surprised that I had not fallen out of his mind and that means a lot. We're still standing strong by local music today! Started for home early because I have to be good until the end of the month. KL IS WHERE BE THE PARTY!

So, half an hour into saturday my idiot colleague made a bet I won't be able to wake in time to meet at freaking noon. Jin obviously didn't win the bet. Headed down to Choa Chu Kang and bought a father's day mango cake with 5 candles from four leaves before making way to HY's crib for a big lunch of
CHILLI CRAB
STEAMED CRAB
GINSENG CHICKEN
DRUNKEN PRAWNS
LOR MEE
STIR FRIED FRENCH BEANS&TOFU
FRENCH LOAF&GARLICBUTTER DRESSING
CARLSBERG FRUIT PUNCH
all of which, home cooked! By a couple of men! Food was REALLYREALLY good. It's probably got something to do with HY's retirement plan. He has to start charging at the door. We were expecting 20 guests but only 8 turned up. There was also a SAKAE SUSHI PARTY PLATTER. Can you imagine the amount of food there was to finish. A whole bottle of XO and 4 cans of beer were emptied in the process. Was the only guest from corporate office invited (aside from the MD, director of studio everyone else present is from) but it was still fantastic hanging out. Father's Day/Birthday Song/Candles and all. HY has an adorable schnauzer named Nazi whom I stopped giving cuddles to after his hurling of green pellets and mucus. On carpet. Headed to PS with Jin to watch Incredible Hulk after, before dropping off his really old skool smells like moth balls beigey white mercs at golden mile complex, to join SM and his friend for pool prata and a little more pool.

Today's a lazy stay-in sunday. Gonna teach (geez) younger brother the basis to learning social studies and geography. He has zero clue tackling source based questions. I'm counting my lucky stars today too, for all the good company and friends I have all around me. They are really what make my life at this juncture of time. Without whom, I would be nothing. SERIOUSLY! Okay gonna stop being mushy and publish the damn entry.

What does it take to love? What will it take to love? Again?

This is much more than what I would like to admit pondering on, but really... Just what will it take, to step into love again? Cliché as it may be, considering situational underlying factors and all, love represents none but a bare whisper. Things are now merely a sheen of no love-ness non-personal de-fucking-tached series of events in a huge empty bowl. Lingering. And waiting. Watching. Waiting.

Good too early morning. Queasy stomach from last night keeping me away from sleep. Was a blast though. Can't feel my skin. Nor brain? need to. Organise. THOUGHTS!