disagree but it's probably true, I'm horrid for a friend.
let go, let go, let go...

it's like a very bad debt that had been written off... but it still freaking gets to you. it comes back occasionally with a vengeance. they are hateful and it's hateful being this way too but i can't seem to get over it. sometimes holidays become too much time and energy on your hands. stupid shit. i guess this is what happens. when people are once too close to each other.

these stupid relations.

aftermath:

HOLY

SHIT!!!!!!!!!


* very important item to buy - simplified chinese/english full picture dictionary.

one more to strike off the to-do list; yes, I have finally found a kid to torture this evening... well it's not much of a salary but I'm kind of looking forward to it because the kid has only attended FOUR months of kindergarten and is starting primary school next year. AND THE FAMILY JUST MOVED FROM CHINA. so we're just gonna do english. there's this ANTICIPATION. of wanting to know WHAT HOW WHERE WHY WHEN WHO EVERYTHING. even the 'just moved from china' part isn't quite worrying enough. am I making sense? because the heat is starting to get to me

couldn't sleep. once in a little while these feelings unlock and get themselves scattered all over. it has been some time since I blogged or wrote or spoke about them because of conflicting issues factors feelings principles so at the end of it someone something would go Run along now, back to where you belong righteously, according to the rest of the world. it happens when you start respecting every point of view, you kind of lose your own and the defination of you. it happens when you start feeling the kind of feeling where you feel like you could be worse off when compared to the rest of the world, you lose the want to need to acknowledge how you're really feeling. and when these things start happening, the world kind of crumbles because you've lost yourself even before the crumbling started

there are only certain things in life happening to people whom I have casual relations with that could make me cry for them, with them. the above mentioned happens to be one of the very few